愚人的国度

爱是愚人的国度　

不能自拔　不懂退出　

我们都回不去最初　

曾美丽　但还是不满足　








：/ Love this song deeply.  The artist,the lyrics,the mv,the story and even the melody touches my soul.   ♥

拥有，没有永久。

感觉拥有，却不真实。
虽然拥有，那又如何？
不真实的拥有= 不曾拥有

眼前的你，已不是以前的你
现在的你，感觉不再熟悉...










心里的眼泪模糊了视线，你已经看不见...

Ohh man STUCK STUCK STUCK!

You this sibeh XXX Addmaths project really tortured me! Grr! (opps can't contol myself)
My precious 1 weeks of holidays already spent up because of this project
And I don't really hope that it would spend my another second weeks of holidays or else I'll be crazy before school reopen.
Try,try and TRY..Try and error,I did it many times already and yet still can't get the solution
How am I going to do for the next part?
I already stuck at the part II plotting graph there T.T
Ohh God,help me please.

Addmaths project you drive me crazy! =/

Things will be alright,I believe.
Nothing can change my mind.
Just brave and ready to fight for this circumstance!

:D

Sigh...

2.17a.m.

已经凌晨两点多了，睏是有点啦，可是就是不想睡，睡不着。
今天一口气更新了4 个post, 夸张对吧？ 可能是因为太久没有上网更新部落格，所以补回数？
随便啦...



很久没这么放肆自己了，那么夜了还不睡。
今天的心情简直是糟透了，因为在fb看了一些很令我恍然大悟的事情，也有一种被人欺骗的感觉。



为什么要骗我？我心里很挣扎
为什么？难道让我知道你近来的状况好不好都不能吗？




很久没有你的消息了，也听不见你的声音，你最近还好吗？
新的生活还能过吗？这些都是我想问的。



远距离，开始了
你的敷衍态度，击败了我原有的信心。
我开始怀疑我有没有把握维持好这关系...

i miss you :'(

Yeap,it's ME! ♥

Long time didn't take pictures already.
Got abit strangeness to my zi pai skill tim.
hahaha XD


Yeap, this is sinyee : )

the 11th months (:

Lost and back!

Moving house makes me can't online for 3 months plus.
This indicates that TMnet really SUCKS!
First,I've missed a lot of things about my friends' latest news and second I lost chances to know about cbb's news.
And yet my friends said I was like already missing in the world. Lol!
And the most important is I've missed Midyear term examination's TIPS! Seriously,including all the important subjects! OMG,TMnet really..Grrr!
However,I still got my friends to send me exam tips during exam week. Really thank you :)

But till now I still can't to online so frequent due to unavailable TMnet. (MAD)
Have to depend on broadband. Sigh. =(
Hope my housing area can get the Internet line faster lahh otherwise I have to wait and wait again until die =X
And my friends will miss my blog(zilian),my plurker will miss me too. XD




So PRAY for me (:

为什么要说谎？

我讨厌说谎的人！







你永远都不会了解被骗的感受。 :'((

I wonder why things happened like that.
Confused and blur.
Can you give me a reason? =S

Perasan. Lol.

Since my face allergic,less photos can be found in my handphone.

Let me perasan for awhile although i'm looked ugly nerd here. Lols :)

Ohhh, my face grows fatter and fatter!  =O

Pimples gone,
Red scars left.

It's going to be fine i know. =)

Hey guy, beware of me ! ;)

巨蟹座女子




温和又体贴的巨蟹座女子，很容易给人“恋爱”的感觉。
如果你是一个追求“爱的感觉”的人，选择她，你肯定不会失望。

　　

巨蟹座的女人通常会给男人一种“如果失去你的爱，我的人生便毫无意义”的信心。这真是很多男人梦寐以求的感受。不过，如果你只是个把恋爱当游戏的人，请千万不要去招惹她。

　　

因为，第一，这对一个真情真意的巨蟹女子来说真是太残忍了，巨蟹座的女人是玩真的，感情绝不是她们轻易亵渎的东西；

　        第二，对于某些蟹座的女子来说，如果她爱上你，想要摆脱她可没有这么容易。你应该知道被螃蟹钳住想脱身有多难的，是不是？她的缠斗精神会让你非常惊讶，我看过一个背叛巨蟹座女子的男人的下场。比起《致命的吸引力》好不到哪儿去。当然，只有极少数的蟹座女子会有如此杀伤力，不过，你还是别心存侥幸为妙。

　　

她的温柔体贴，以及全心全意的爱会让你感动的不得了，很少有女人会让你觉得自己是那么的重要。但是她的情绪化也很可能弄得你几乎疯掉。她非常没有安全感，敏感而且容易受伤。常常你的一句无心之言，就会弄得她泪流满面，或者生气不安。蟹座的女人有两种，当然正常的时侯都如温暖的太阳一样可爱，但是闹起情绪的时侯，一种是带雨梨花型，另一种就是定时炸弹型。如果你遇上的是前者，情况比较幸运，平常多带两包面纸就好了。若是后者，恐怕精神压力就比较大些了。

　　

让她心情阴晴不定的原因有千百种，可能是因为她忽然觉得你好久不曾拥抱她了。也可能是你刚才对她女朋友说话的语气太温柔了。甚至可能是你刚才开玩笑，说她新烫的头发像鸟窝。

　　

总而言之，包括月亮的阴晴圆缺、海水的潮汐，都可能是影响她情绪的原因，而她最大的隐忧，就是她始终在担心，担心自己是不是够好，担心你是不是不再爱她了，她经常需要你的证实。所以我认为，对你而言，最简单的方法就是直接告诉她吧！

　　

除了真心爱她，没有更好的相处之道了，但你必须切记爱她的方法绝不是姑息。当她闹情绪的时侯，给她温柔的安慰，等她心情平稳下来之后，你必须很诚恳的告诉她，她过度的情绪化，对你造成了什么样的伤害！把你真实的感受让她知道，她是真心爱你的，她会知道应该适度的修正自己。千万不要一昧的息事宁人，你会把她宠坏的。蟹座女子有个奇怪的特性，那就是如果你不告诉她“够了”，她就会不断的尝试，看你能够容忍她到什么地步。她似乎很难明白什么叫“适可而止”。到最后她的情绪化会到了自己都无法控制的地步，当然，你也终究会忍无可忍的。


对蟹座女子来说，宠坏一个男人似乎是占有他的最好办法，即使你今天离开了她，等你想清楚了，迟早还是会回到她身边的，因为没人会像她那样爱你了。

　　

所以，你应该明白，你必须学习用适当的方法爱她。如果你懂得相处之道，她会是个不可多得的妻子。你可以一生享受爱情的甜蜜，她会为你们的家一无保留的付出。

　　

巨蟹座的女性还有一个特点，那就是平时她虽然一副脆弱、情绪化，一副没有你就活不下去的样子，但是真的当你们遭遇到现实中的问题，连你都绝望无助的时侯，她会变成一个坚强又有韧性的女人。你可以像孩子投进母亲怀抱一样的去依赖她，她会细心的医疗你的伤口，坚强的陪你共度难关。多数巨蟹座的女子都很有金钱观念，懂得量入为出的道理。（除非她有一个挥霍的月座或上升星座）通常她只会在心情沮丧（觉得你不爱他）的时侯，才会乱花钱来平抚内心不安的情绪。为了你的荷包着想，常常给她“爱的感觉”才是明智之举。


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原来我是这样的人？
哇，很恐怖叻。 :.......:

坚强又有韧性 ♥
这就是我！呵！ XD
 
 

巨蟹座




你不但想像力丰富，而且有很强的理解力。你坦白、大方、正直、忠于朋友。还有你十分善于理财、也很会存钱。你有一种母性的防卫能力和不挑剔朋友的顺应性。你很会模仿，并能在模仿中创造出新的东西来。对人过于同情时，你会变成双重性格，因为你感情脆弱，一听到对方的不幸，心就软了下来，同情会改变你对他人的看法。

巨蟹座是有内向性格的女性星座：你比较倾向女性阴柔的一面。你重感情、做人踏实、对自己也蛮有自信的哦！



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讨厌自己太过敏感



对别人温柔，就是对自己残忍，用这句话来形容巨蟹，应该不会招来太多的异议，因为太在乎别人的态度，又太需要被爱，巨蟹选择了毫无保留的付出，这本来也是无可厚非的，一个愿打一个愿挨，爱情的游戏本来就没有真理存在，可太过敏感的心让他们吃了不少苦头，突然的不联系，突然多出来的距离，都让巨蟹特别的不安，真的很讨厌，一点小事因为自己的敏感而越闹越大，甚至演变成了不信任，一不小心就触动了爱情的死穴。








Read this from somewhere else again.
Omg, it's so true.
I really hate my over sensitivity  =X

What a so hectic Form 5 Life .

FORM 5, yes now I'm in!

What I expect for my form 5 school life, it does exist eventually.

The first day of school supposedly a lucky day for me.
But then IT WAS TOTALLY SUCKS AS I NEVER THOUGHT BEFORE!
I was being trapped by someone,a nerd.
I was just like a mad,so busy with this and that.
I've to work and serve others like a maid and such a dog!
I don't want to be and I don't want to accept this post at all!
Ehh please..just let me be me!
3 days, I've been suffered enough. Even just 3 days.
But for me it just like a week,so long duration.

However, I've been released finally.
I don't have to care anything and just concentrate to be a normal student.
Well, this is what I really want to be.
By the way, I still have to thanks her to take over my job although I'm not so close with her.
Thank you!
Hope you won't hate me.


Even after a week I still can't get used to my school life that without you.
I hope I can see you there but I know this is totally impossible. Lol
And yet I still can't get used to my busy school life.
Wake up early go to school then sleep early. End with a day.
How regular it is,indeed.
And I hate homeworks too! So much and seemed no ending to be reached.
GRR!


Sigh. No way to change the recent life now.
So I just have to obey and follow what I've to do.
That's it.
Nevermind, I'll try to get used to my recent school life and FIGHT FOR IT!




Gayao sinyee! (:

A day of Cleaning

Woke up early in the morning.
Yes,I'm the early bird although I got a pair of bloated eyes. =)
It's okay I still have enough spirits to carry out my whole day's actitives.
Yea, I've been promised my mummy and daddy for cleaning new house today.
And made them felt surprised that I'm paying back my promise,able to get up of my warm bed.
No back off. How good I am :)

Skip craps there.
After breakfast then straight away headed there.
No chit-chating and start working!

First mission, cleaning my room's washroom!
Aww, so freaking dirty and dust eveywhere,thick cover on the wall. My god!
I've to clean and wash. No choice because I'm not rich enough to get a maid.
Just go ahead.
I had never ever wash toilet bowl since I was born.
the first day of 2011, I washed.
Well,this was not a very honorable thing to be celebrated or happy. Lol
But I was so satisfied with my bathroom. I washed it till so clean and even blinking. x)
And the toilet was so clean and white! Ohh man I love my bathroom so much! =D

Spent whole day staying there and carried on the cleaning jobs.
I'm so satisfied with myself.

But right now I'm extremely exhausted.
First time washed so many toilets, 4 toilets!
I suspect that actually I'm a superwoman. Who knows?

寂寞 ， 就好

1.23am.

结束通话。

通话记录显示： 53 minutes.


还剩 53 分钟通话记录
哎，看来又浪费了...
看来我被耍了
你的语气，让我很失望。
你的沉默不语，也让我很无奈。

算了


夜深了，2011 的第一个夜晚竟是如此的寂静。
为了不浪费，努力地寻找能让我倾诉的依靠
电话联络簿来回一圈，还是找不到。
这个时候，朋友们不是睡了，就是忙着倒数。


我，犹如被世界遗弃的负累。
我，宛如被别人遗忘的过客。
我，很想哭。


寂寞很孤单，孤单真的很寂寞。
我，需要人陪。


躺在床上，侧着身子
辗转难眠，何苦呢？


寂寞就好，没关系，一个人就好，我告诉自己。
眼泪划过脸颊，渗透枕头
无声的哭泣，难受。
因为你，我失眠了。


没关系，

因为我承诺会更爱自己。